27 Jul


“If someone renounces themselves,

then whatever they might keep,

 wether it be a kingdom or honour

or whatever it may be,

they will still have renounced

all things.”

                                                           Meister Eckhart


I have lost everything I loved,

trampled below me and from above

I cannot find those things anymore.

They have been sacked and plundered, scorched and scored;

Expelled from the belly of a Trojan horse

Wrapped and gifted, without remorse.

 Perhaps, I had to abandon those things

 in my surrender, in my winter before the Spring;

Empty handed, on my knees,

To learn there is nothing sacred, for desire without need.


As I grow older, more mature, more disposed

to release those things  I can’t believed in anymore,

You, have stayed at my side, through this resolution,

to help me place the plastic flowers of illusion

At the grave sites of what I thought was at stake;


Allowing me, now, to be peacefully embraced

At the foot of my grave mistake.


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39 responses to “MY GRAVE MISTAKE

  1. kaykuala

    August 1, 2014 at 8:23 pm

    Wonderful style ZQ! Your play on words to eventually surprise us with their meanings in different context of situations shows brilliance. Word ‘grave’ is case in point!



  2. ZQ

    July 29, 2014 at 6:22 pm

    Thank You, Torie.


  3. ZQ

    July 29, 2014 at 6:21 pm

    Yes, and/or experience…


  4. ZQ

    July 29, 2014 at 6:20 pm

    Thank you my friend. I did miss your presence this week. 🙂


  5. ZQ

    July 29, 2014 at 6:19 pm

    Thank You G L.


  6. ZQ

    July 29, 2014 at 6:18 pm

    Thank You Ankita.


  7. ZQ

    July 29, 2014 at 6:17 pm

    I’m still not sure if my “YOU” was my Higher Power or my Guardian Angel 🙂


  8. ZQ

    July 29, 2014 at 6:14 pm

    Yes, I agree 🙂


  9. Torie

    July 29, 2014 at 3:49 pm

    Overcoming struggles and change brings out the strength we didn’t realize was inside of us. Once we understand that we are strong enough, anything is possible. Well done, sir 🙂


  10. Stormcat

    July 28, 2014 at 3:29 pm

    Wisdom happens in proportion to age.


  11. dsnake1

    July 28, 2014 at 11:25 am

    i agree with them, one of your best, and a powerful one at that.

    “and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul..” i did not say this. i guess you know where this quote came from. 🙂


  12. G L Meisner

    July 28, 2014 at 7:22 am

    Very well written. I enjoyed reading it.


  13. Ankita

    July 28, 2014 at 2:24 am

    I really liked the way you ended the write ZQ….smiles.


  14. Sumana Roy

    July 27, 2014 at 11:01 pm

    what’s the need of anything when “You” is there for solace?..some wonderful imagery and pun here ZQ…


  15. oldegg

    July 27, 2014 at 10:03 pm

    Perhaps like me you have looked around at a lifetime of memories, books, pictures, pitiful objects and memories now forgotten. Living in the past, even planning the future is futile when there is only now.


  16. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 9:20 pm

    Very perceptive my good friend…


  17. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 9:16 pm

    Ha, 🙂 you got it…


  18. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 9:15 pm

    Yes! …as we should


  19. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 9:14 pm

    Thank you Mary, your encouragement is universal in the pantry.


  20. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 9:13 pm

    Thank you for your kind comment.


  21. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 9:11 pm

    Sherry the YOU is my God. you know 🙂


  22. arushiahuja

    July 27, 2014 at 6:01 pm

    a really strong one.. i love how you use the word grave as a pun at the end!


  23. Maniparna Sengupta Majumder

    July 27, 2014 at 4:20 pm

    Powerful and profound…especially love the line ” to help me place the plastic flowers of illusion”…


  24. Gabriella

    July 27, 2014 at 3:04 pm

    A very honest and profound write, ZQ! I like the feeling of acceptance, rather than submission, I can feel in your words.


  25. Mary

    July 27, 2014 at 2:28 pm

    I agree with Sherry. This is one of your best. I wonder perhaps if sometime we have to lose things to find out what is really important; and that we never lose. It is nice to have someone by your side through losses though, someone who understands and stands by! Keep penning and sharing your poems, ZQ.


  26. scotthastiepoet

    July 27, 2014 at 2:25 pm

    There is some real power and depth here – especially liked these two lines:

    “Perhaps, I had to abandon those things
    in my surrender, in my winter before the Spring;”

    For me, a real glow of erudition here…


  27. Sherry Blue Sky

    July 27, 2014 at 2:12 pm

    One of your best, ZQ, and how I resonate, having shed some tears this weekend for all I have lost – like you, everything I have loved. I like, at poem’s end, that one has stood by you faithfully, allowing you now to be “peacefully embraced at the foot of my grave mistake.” Thank heaven for the steadfast. Bless you, my friend.


  28. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 2:01 pm

    Naw… your “case” is well represented in your fine work.


  29. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 1:51 pm

    Thank you Miss Grace 🙂


  30. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 1:51 pm

    …and Bertolt Brecht “Intelligence is not to make no mistakes, but quickly to see how to make them good.” 🙂


  31. Kerry O'Connor

    July 27, 2014 at 1:49 pm

    there is nothing sacred, for desire without need..

    This is a truly profound piece, ZQ. I had a strange feeling of synchronicity when I read it having just finished my own poem on a similar theme. You state your case far better than I.
    Thank you.


  32. Grace

    July 27, 2014 at 1:43 pm

    Tight verses, I specially like the ending ~


  33. Enigma

    July 27, 2014 at 1:39 pm

    A lot of wisdom here. A very thought-provoking piece. Existential ideas always remind me of Samuel Beckett and Albert Camus. It’s a very intriguing philosophy (quite possibly the one I most relate to).

    Well penned. And a fitting quote.


  34. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 1:24 pm

    You are welcome …and thank you!


  35. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 1:23 pm

    Thank you sir!


  36. skipmars

    July 27, 2014 at 12:49 pm



  37. humbird

    July 27, 2014 at 12:35 pm

    ‘I cannot find those things anymore.’ ~ these phrase struck me as it’s about me too.. (One more cup of coffee if you will….xx) different lives, reasons, obstacles, but yes, we need find the peace in new things, new relationships between and inside….it meant to be an experience, it meant to be a lesson, this is why it hurts, and we don’t have to renounce from ourselves as it well said in the quote above. ~ Thank you for reminding….


  38. ZQ

    July 27, 2014 at 12:01 pm

    Hahaha… then a smile from ear to ear… YUP!


  39. Rallentanda

    July 27, 2014 at 11:51 am

    It seems you have undergone a personal crisis of faith and have finally resolved it, and found some sort of peace with finding the truth of things…you can thank the Jesuits for that!:)



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