Notes found in the gate house at Meredith Bay

Title: When Silence has spoken: In Six Chapters

By ZQ

 

 

Chapter One:

 

I was walking alone

In the rain

Having my smoke,

Dodging small puddles and wet ferns

When

I noticed a worm extended and wiggling

In a shallow pond;

That the rain and

This path of frequent passage

 Had made.

 

Chapter Two

 

Upon my return

I noticed the worm had almost

Made it

Out of this small pond

To freedom.

Extended and wiggling

At a rhythmic pace

But going nowhere.

 

With a nearby twig

I hunched over

Squatting with reverence

Dug a small trench

On the boundary

In the wet soil

Scooped up the worm

Twirling around and ‘round

On the tip of my twig,

I, loud and clear

Released it;

Into the small trench

I had made.

 

I gently covered it

Blessed it

And said “good-bye”.

 

Chapter Three.

 

Advancing,

On my return,

A bird swiftly flew by me

Perched itself on a branch

Screeching as if to scold me

For taking away its meal.

 

It had been perched

Somewhere near by

Since the rain came.

Knowing its meal would arrive.

 

But,

Then,

I came along,

To become a heretic

On my return

On this path.

(Having blessed its breakfast

To freedom

And hearing

The screecher s’

Hungry lament).

 I had just been spoken to.

Very boldly.

Without linguistics.

 

 Chapter Four

 

All in one moment

The consequences of my action,

Blessed and Scolded,

Filled me with anxiety, exhilaration

And guilt.

I walked to and fro

Kicking my heels

But they only dragged

Causing a mis-step.

I tried to clear my mind.

My pace and my vision

Went from pride

To “What the heck,

I don’t know”.

No place to hide

No place to go.

 

Chapter Five

 

The rain stopped

The sun emerged

Between the branches and the leaves

Making bright channels of sparks

Igniting the heavy mist

To rise as fog along my feet.

Whisking translucent

And gradually thickening

Then unpredictably

Started taking the shape

Of two persons

Maybe not

Just two beings

Drifting

In front of me.

 

I tried to clear my mind.

Seeing them

Seeing This

Seeing that

Then as the fog

Took solid

Beyond recognition

I saw the Holy Rumi

And his Dervish companion.

The Holy one spoke

As sending thoughts.

Each word,

Carried,

Diminished the elusion

The fog created.

“Observe the wonders as they occur around you.

Do not claim them.

Feel the artistry moving through

And be silent.”

I kept trying to clear my mind;

To understand

Yet unable to think

As the mist and fog

Waffled and wafered

Towards and into

The channels of light

As sparklers, celebrating the transition

Sunshine

Through the last rain drop

Its moment of prism.

Then,

Then the day

Had subtlety changed

Along my path.

 Chapter Six

 Nothing.

Nothing that I could conjure up.

So,

Nothing but silence

Returned.

Be Kind to your Demons

Be Kind to your Demons

They are

Crazed and self deprived.

They steal what others say

In prayer-

They change the words

Into cacophony;

A mumbo and a jumble

Laced with hatred and fear.

With eyes rolled back

They continue to stare

At the bleakness of their lives,

Trying to cave in

The glimmer of light

That isn’t theirs.

They are demons

They are everywhere

Dancing in a circle

Baring their teeth

And kicking their feet in the air;

Circling ever closer

Never really sober

Waiting for you to leave your chair.

Any act of kindness,

However,

Makes them cringe

And disappear.

Restless and confused [Pine cone diaries]

 

Restless and confused

Looking for something I couldn’t find,

I went out for a smoke and a walk.

It was the kind of night,

Also cluttered

In chaotic black and white.

 

It was April

With snow flakes blown into flurries

Mixed with spring rain;

Misting heavier than the flakes

Sometimes colliding as crystal

Sometimes as bright white sails

Sometimes as a drop of rain.

 

Is it still winter?

Or is this early spring?

The changing of the guard

Seems inhospitable.

I seem to be witnessing the chaos

As a personal experience

Mixed with embarrassment

And wonder.

 

I decided to turn the light on

I could see the whole transition.

It was only the weather.

 

I turned the light back off

Went back into the house.

Having seen what I was looking for.

Realizing with a smile,

I had found no shadow,

No footprints

To follow,

Only myself

To understand

I had seen it all.